New way for you to follow along.

What a day to be alive!!!!

NFT LA event just ended, I met so many amazing new people.

I need to be networking more.

After the event I really started looking at ways for people to follow along with me on this journey. I have thought about only fans and other things…. lol no for real that has been a topic I have thought about many times. I know a lot of people that do it and make great money. I don’t think I could ever do it but I applaud people for taking control of getting paid for what the show and I have to respect that. I have modeled for years and its not as easy as people think. its a dark world filled with hate and horrible self image problems, always trying to look the best and be on top. In a industry that is constantly getting new faces and younger and sexier and better or different. Yeah its not easy, so I can only imagine how hard it is for models on onlyfans showing all kinds of them selfs for pay, but there hast to be a lot of hate and rejection on there also. Anyways the point is, I do not have an onlyfans and I am looking at writing and telling my story to fund my life. But you never know ;-) here is a link to where you can buy me a coffee and support if you would like.


In this world of constant change and new tech being invented and implemented, I plan on finding the best platforms to share my content with the world. so thinks will obviously change and constantly change. but I think that is a good thing. Won’t always be fun and easy but it is for the best.


Till next time,

Phil

Im not a writer, i'm a storyteller. By Philip Burrow

You know what’s crazy? I think I am turning into a writer!

hahaha 

Sorry I actually had to laugh at myself there for a sec.

I am not a writer...I’m a storyteller. 

 yeah that’s better ;-) 

Actually, I think knowing who I am finally is helping me grow up. 

Today I pawned my two canon cameras to pay my rent and pay some bills. 

I am not good with money. I suck at it honestly. I would give it away if I knew someone needed it. I never have cared about how much money I have. It has always just come and gone. But now I live in LA and gas is $6.25 a gallon and hyperinflation is a real thing. $20 is not $20 anymore. Time for Phil to grow up.

Funny thing is, in my desperation I am finding myself relying more on God to supply my needs. 

I had a life changing personal breakthrough in Dec of last year. Here is a Link to my IG post if you want to know more about that click >>> Instagram post
Sorry back to today. (I am dyslexic and I have ADHD or however that goes… )

I ran out of gas...and no I did not forget that I was low on gas. I had $5 in my account and I was on my way to get my camera to take it to the pawn shop for $$. 

There I was sitting in the middle of the road thinking to myself, “Wow you are a failure.”

Out of gas on PCH. March 31 2022

I sat there and made a choice. I can complain and make excuses or I can do something about it. 


Then I thought this is a good time to listen to a chapter in the bible. I have started listening everyday. Well I don’t always do it, but I try, and I have been doing really good. I think it has made a difference in how I see things. 

 

I called my mom and told her that I needed $10 so I could get some gas. She reminded me to pray and ask for some help. I did and long story short, my parents gave me $25 and I got some help from a very nice tow truck guy. I was on my way, got my cameras pawned and paid my rent! Boom 

 

I’m really enjoying finding myself and discovering who I am, what I like and why I like it. I can’t really explain it but it’s a beautiful thing to wake up. I’m really enjoying that right now. We take it for granted. I’m falling in love with being alive. I used to live in this dark, dark world of regret, shame and fear...mostly fear. Fear of what other’s thought, fear of not being enough, fear of failure, fear of people finding out how uneducated and dumb I feel, fear of not being accepted for being odd and weird and goofy. And now I feel no fear. I feel empowered and meaningful. I feel like I have a voice and value. And I know who my God and Lord and Savior is and He knows my name. He knows how many hairs are on my head and He Loves me. And that is all I need. 

 

Daniel 3:16-28

Thanks for reading.

Phil